måndag 14 december 2009

Busy days or am I just lazy?

Don't know if I should write this blog in english or swedish. I mean, I dont even know who's reading this blog. But i though feel that I have negklected my english since I came back to Gothenburg.
I still have ups and downs, but it feels like the things inside me are slowly moving in to a more peacefull state of mind. Maybe its the house were I live, so full of love, people who really care and who love for who I am, not what i am. People who are brave enough to tell me when they feel that I've been hurting them and who give me equal parts of constructive criticism and uplifting peptalk.
Felt a bit bad over not keeping up the contact with my Icelandic friend F, if you read this, Jag har inte glömt dig! Bara ebhövt fokusera på annat just nu. pengarna kommer innan jul!. puss.
My studies are almost on the right level, trying to get a bit more selfdicipline, and it works rather well when I really focus on it and not blaming myself for doing mistakes.
I've also worked as an actor in an arty film/Vj project with my friend Joppe, who's a Vj, a filmmaker and overall a good friend and a crekative soul that I can feel free with and create amazing art with.
BUT. The most exciting thing right now is this: I'm in love. I promised myself not to be, I was too afraid to get hurt agin, but it happend anyway. Her name is Iren, and she's the best thing that could happen to me right now. Calm, intelligent, beautiful, funny, understanding... Gosh, I could talk about her for ages. But I'm not gonna do that right now. Only 8 min left o my computer time here at the library in Gothenburg.
Take care!
xxx/Joh